This is why I train
If you were to ask me years ago, “why do I train?” my answer would be completely different than it is today. Initially, I started to train because I wanted to lose the baby weight. I saw an “after” picture of my good friend from High School and thought to myself, I want to get my body to look like that and what is it going to take? Years ago I was full of comparison and striving in my own strength. I wanted to train for the sole purpose to look and feel good about myself. I thought that if I looked a certain way then I would be happy and worthy of love.
In the past I wanted to look like all those ‘after’ pictures. I knew that I could do it. I like to achieve and try to control the things around me in order to get the job done. BUT self-control without love is bondange. From the outside it looks like good self-control but in reality I was in bondage. Fear can be a good motivator but it is not love and it is not lasting. I was in bondage to my self image, to food and to my workouts. I was living in the kitchen, counting and controlling everything I put into my body, so that my body could look just right. I thought IF I looked good and felt good about myself, THEN I would feel loved. I was living from a place of fear rather than letting love be my motive.
I got to a place where I was physically strong but so spiritually and emotionally weak. It took me having to get to such a low place that I no longer wanted to be there anymore. God awakened my spirit to desire for something more. He showed me my true identity as His beloved daughter and I could train out of a place of love being my motivation. No longer training out of a place of shame or punishment. BECAUSE God calls me good and loves me unconditionally just as I am.
Now if you ask me, “Why do I train?”
I train because it is a GET TO.
I train to not just feel better but to get better.
I train for my family.
I train so that I can be the wife, mom and friend God has called me to be.
I train to have a thriving marriage.
I train for my home to be a safe haven.
I train so that I no longer stay in hiding.
I train so that I continually release control and choose my best yes each and every day.
I train out of love; love for myself as a daughter of God, love for my husband, love for my kids and love for my tribe of people God has brought into my life.
I train so that I can help to encourage others.
I train because God gave me a good body to do so.
I train for FREEDOM!
1 Timothy 4:7-10
“Do not waste time arguing over godless ideas and old wives’ tales. Instead, train yourself to be godly. Physical training is good, but training for godliness is much better, promising benefits in this life and in the life to come. This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it. This is why we work hard and continue to struggle, for our hope is in the living God, who is the Savior of all people and particularly of all believers.”
Now I ask you, why do you train?
- Savannah, Revelation Wellness Instructor